When someone taps into their creativity, they are having spiritual experience. A lot of people may not realize this or even believe it. They just have a different view of the world. I shared a similar view for a very long time. The me then would not only make fun of the me now, but I might even get beat up. I was so miserable, lost and lonely. Just an angry negative little man. I didn't have any goals. I had no accountability and no ambition to change. I just didn't see the point. I couldn't be bothered with doing the "right thing" or "living the right way" All that sounded like too much work. The whole being honest, dependable, having self-respect and living by a moral code, seemed a waste of time and energy. We're all going to die anyway, so why not just do whatever you feel like doing. Be selfish, tell lies, do drugs, have zero responsibility. I'm here for a good time, not a long time. I always thought I was too far gone and no matter what I did from here on in, God still wasn't going to allow me into heaven. Did I really even believe in God? I'm not sure. I know I wasn't living a life I was proud of. I feel like a lot of us think that because we don't go to church to worship God, or because we don't pray before we eat, or before we go to bed. Or maybe drink four or five days a week. Or get high once in a while. Or sometimes have sex with random people that were going to go to hell. Sure, living this way, we are clearly not living a virtuous life or having many spiritual experiences, I know I wasn't. I could be wrong, but I find it hard to believe that I could spend the next eternity in Hell for these transgressions. Burning in flames hanging out with Anton, Ted, Jeffery, Richard, Charles and the rest of the creeps maybe playing spades or just talking into the night. Those are all evil, no longer living people who belong in Hell. I don't. I haven't done anything that deserves that kind of punishment. Have you? I truly believe that most of us are inherently good people. Or at least we were in the beginning before the world got its claws into us. Even so, I'm not a murderer, or a rapist. I don't rob old ladies and worship the devil. So why on earth did I think I was such a bad person. I have a good heart. I care about people and always want what's best for anyone who deserves it. After losing most everyone I have ever known and truly loved in one way or another I started to see things differently. I was causing my own suffering. I hated my life, I hated myself. Why? I was so negative. Like a victim, I viewed life as something that was happening to me, rather than appreciating how beautiful and brief life truly is. I was always looking for an outside solution to fix my problems. Even though most of them were self-inflicted. Spirituality for me usually comes from me and the way I'm viewing the world at the moment. Once I realized I could change that at any point and time, I was free. Someone used to say to me "Happiness is a choice." That saying used to infuriate me. I never understood it. I remember thinking to myself "Who would choose to be unhappy? That's such a dumb saying." I guess the joke was on me. Lol. Life sucks, it's hard, we live in a crazy world with evil around every corner. Remain vigilant and always be aware of that if for anything, your own protection. Just don't get caught up in it. There was a better life and another whole world, I was missing out on. While all of the horrible things I said about the world are true, it's an active choice to live it. Life is beautiful if we choose to make it that way. I know it may sound a little too positive to some. Maybe even naive. A very smart person once told me that this is my movie. I'm the viewer, the main character and can write the story however I choose. Spirituality came to me not in a church, but from within my own mind and through my own eyes. Once I learned to be alright with myself, everything else seemed to follow suit. Nobody can fix me, except for me, because only I know my thoughts. When life is a mess its hard trying to not see the shit in every situation. It's hard at first. I just learned to catch myself. Over time it gets easier. Nobody wants to be around a negative pissed off person. Thats what is referred to sometimes as an energy vampire. They attempt to drag others down to their level because they don't know the way up and out. Life is going to happen no matter what. So why not at least try and make the best of it. If I know I'm doing everything I can to live virtuously, what else are we. In that way imagination can truly be personified. Hours upon hours of spiritual connection. Tapping into other dimensions. Meeting every different version of myself that is willing, stable and available in the quantum universe to date. Don't believe it? Just have a look around. JESFX HEZEL-10 Present Reality First Experienced Location Rochester New Hampshire Est.1981
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